Kayley and I had a conversation earlier that’s been on my mind all night. We were discussing Pinterest, which is an addiction she and I both share. We were discussing how someone we know from church just joined Pinterest, and started following both of us. Kayley asked, mostly jokingly, if I was going to start being more “careful” with what I was pinning now. I said, “Hell no! I am who I am! She’ll have to get used to it!” We laughed, but then I started thinking more about social media, and how Pinterest has added yet another level of instant intimacy between people who oftentimes barely know one another. And I guess sometimes that can be weird.
I think, though, that I’m pretty much the same person online as I am in person. I don’t have some public persona that differs to greatly from how I am behind closed doors. Sometimes, that’s proven to be a bit of a detriment. There have been lots of times where I’ve wished later on that I would have kept my mouth shut about something, for sure. I really do wish I was better at that. But the truth is, I’m not. My parents always encouraged me to be a precocious, outspoken smart ass, and apparently it’s stayed with me.
You know what, though? I am totally okay with that. I want people to read my blog and see the things I pin and be like, “Yep, that sounds just like Laura.” I personally love getting to know people better via social media. I love finding out somebody else had the same Run DMC poster on their bedroom wall in 1986. I love seeing people’s Christmas trees. I love hearing about how much they love their kids. It’s all cool. And honestly? I LOVE it when I get to know someone better and realize they have some “dirty little secret,” like they love gangsta rap, or they drank too much on New Years Eve, or they say FUCK sometimes. I love that. It’s like, “Hey! Look at me, being an actual person over here!” I love that. But what I love is finding out someone is even MORE awesome than I originally thought – like, I already knew they were funny, but now I know they love Star Wars, sushi, and good beer. I HATE it when I find out someone has a secret, shitty side that I wouldn’t have known about otherwise. Like, they always seemed nice and friendly, but then you friend them on Facebook and find out that they’re racist, homophobic, or just phony shit-talkers. I don’t THINK you’re going to find that with me. Really. I mean, I might be completely delusional, but I’d like to believe that people are not all that surprised when they friend me on Facebook or follow me on Pinterest. I’m pretty transparent.
Do you find that you censor yourself online?