There’s just too much of it everywhere! You can just turn to Google any old time, and scare the pants off of yourself reading horror stories about every ailment you can imagine. Internet, I hate you. Because I can’t quit you! The minute I find out anything, I have to immediately Google it to death so I can obsess about it for the next day and a half. Why? Why do we do this to ourselves?
Yesterday, the doctor’s office called. They apparently forgot that we spoke on Friday, so they called and said, “We’re seeing a cyst in one of the ventricles in your brain, and we need you to come back in for an MRI to make sure that’s all it is.” Ventricle! A new word to search for! Yeah, bad idea. Now I know that it’s right in the middle of my brain, instead of just, like, a wayward tangle they saw in my hair.
I’ve had several people tell me they know someone who was told they had a “brain cyst” (doesn’t that just SOUND gross? Having a cyst anywhere is gross, but in your brain? Sick! I USE my brain! It’s not like having a cyst on my elbow joint or something!) and it turned out to be either nothing, or nothing they had to do anything about. And then I’ve read several more stories where people had to have surgery. So, I’m guessing it’s one of two things: 1. Nothing. or 2. Something. I almost wish they would have just insisted I come in for another test but not told me why, y’know? I’m mostly fine and going on about my business, but then late at night I start thinking about the possibility of having surgery and get my head shaved and possibly DYING and stuff, and then I lie in bed and weep. Sucks, man! I wish they would have placed more of a priority on getting me in there just to ease my MIND!
But hey. What are you gonna do? I say, ’tis the season for eating candy corn.
Laura, also known as LaLaGirl, is the mother of a teenager and two young sets of twins. She's happily married to an enginerd named Paul, loves living in Colorado, and writes almost daily about married life, raising multiples, and parenting a child with autism. In addition to playing Barbies and pretending to eat plastic food all day, Laura spends most of her time folding clean laundry, obsessing about the amount of sugar her kids eat, and vacuuming up Polly Pocket accessories. She's obsessed with Yo Gabba Gabba, red wine, and Family Guy. She also regularly contributes to How Do You Do It? and authors the following blogs:


Amy
October 14th, 2008 at 11:37 am
Oh man - so they called AGAIN? Did you ask them why you couldn’t come in sooner for the retest? I’m sorry you’re so scared. I wish there was something we could do to make that part better, but I know there’s not. Just know that I’m thinking about you!
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melanie
October 14th, 2008 at 1:45 pm
Laura honey, don’t do this to yourself. It’s good to be informed but until you find out exactly whats going on, you are just going to get yourself stressed out.
I would call and see if they can get you in earlier, just to ease your mind. Sometimes you just have to be very demanding with doctors to get what you want.
Hang in there. I am voting for the “nothing” because otherwise they would have had you in the next day, right?
Hugs.
soleil
October 14th, 2008 at 2:14 pm
I agree with Melanie.
Although I understand why you’re freaking out (I would be too!). Hopefully they can get you in earlier.
((Hugs)) You’re in my thoughts!
Nini
October 14th, 2008 at 2:49 pm
I’ve been thinking about you. I hate that you don’t know yet, and I hate that they’re letting you hang with this nerve wracking anticipation. Big hugs to you.
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Allison
October 14th, 2008 at 8:35 pm
Laura, I am thinking of you. Have been since I first saw your post about it.
A word of advice - Stay away from google and let the doctors work their magic. You will worry yourself sick. I would try to see if you can get in earlier to ease your mind some. Hang in there, hon.
Amanda
October 14th, 2008 at 10:01 pm
I’ve been thinking of you Laura. (And noticing you’re not online as much as usual!) Hope it’s nothing and I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you!
Amandas last blog post..The little luxuries
Julie
October 15th, 2008 at 10:36 am
Sorry, it does suck. But if your doctor’s office just called and said “you need to come in” I think you would have thought “OMG! Why!!!” And then would have made them tell you. And, as scary as information is, sometimes ignorance is not bliss. And, I am writing very matter-of-factly, but I’m really sorry you have to go through this and I’m trying to send you positive thoughts. Candy corn is good but those little pumpkins are GREAT!
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Tamara
October 15th, 2008 at 11:22 am
I wish I could say “Don’t worry about it” but I know that’s impossible. Quit googling. I think Google is an awesome tool but can be EVIL!
You have my number if you need someone to talk too. Take care and I’ll be sending positive thoughts and health your way!
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Eden
October 15th, 2008 at 5:21 pm
Laura, I have something to talk to you about. I’m going to email you my number. Call me whenever get the chance.
Edens last blog post..Let it ALL out.
Tracy
October 15th, 2008 at 6:59 pm
And you’re having this all checked out because of headaches? Now I am stressing! I’ve had migraine/optical headaches for 22 years.
Tracys last blog post..Weird…
Holly Kay
October 16th, 2008 at 11:24 am
My gosh…it’s even hard reading and going through the anticipation with you. I can’t imagine what you are feeling. You seem to be handling it well.
Google makes me feel better and worse when I have ailments–including recent cancer scares! I am usually able to find a story with almost my exact symptoms that turned out fine. I HOPE this all turns out to be fine.
It’s nice to see how much support you have from your readers!
Holly Kays last blog post..Bye Bye Husband
Bridget
October 17th, 2008 at 11:47 am
I just came across your blog from Twitter Moms, I really like your blog. Your header is super cute and funny!
lisalisa
October 17th, 2008 at 6:55 pm
thinking of you my dear. <3 if you need anything just let me know.
fidget
October 17th, 2008 at 11:27 pm
i think candy corn is a fine coping mechanism
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Maggie
October 18th, 2008 at 2:54 pm
Firstly I love your blog, and I’m definitely coming back. Your attitude shines through your words and you are a cool girl and mom! I’m a 33 yr. old mom of three and loving the blog world
As far as your cyst and the internet- I HEAR YOU. I actually turned into a hypochondriac for a while because I had a cyst on my ovary and some other medical issues and my internet searches kept basically telling me ‘ YOU MIGHT DIE< HURRY AND RUN FOR YOUR LIFE’ gee, thanks.
i recommend you stay off the searches. they raise your blood pressure and stress you out which raises your cortisol and basically makes nuts.
i will be back to your blog and hope you come visit me.