Being a mom sucks ass sometimes.
Like today, for example. Not because of anything my kids have done. They’re little hellions sometimes, for sure, and they’re full of attitude sometimes and they beat on one another throughout the day, but honestly – they’re completely normal. They act like any other kids out there. They aren’t any better or worse than anyone else’s kids. We certainly aren’t on the verge of being the recipient of an intervention by the Supernanny or anything.
It’s ME. It’s all me. I’ve been a completely impatient, unkind, YELLY mom all day. I went ten thousand miles overboard getting onto Pablo about something just now. I’ve been hollering at the kids all day long. I am SO FRUSTRATED when we run late. I totally blame them because they take seven years getting their coats/shoes and getting in the van. When it’s really myself who is to blame – I create the schedule, I’m the one who slept until 7:55 this morning, I’m the one who was reading stupid questionnaires on MySpace while we should have been locating shoes when it was time to pick up Pablo and Mallory. I’m the one who hasn’t done the extra organizing of toys while the kids are in bed, so it’s MY fault the living room looks like a fucking pit. It’s really not anything to do with them. I can’t just holler at 4 little tiny kids, “Pick up this entire living room, pack up every toy and put it back where it belongs, and do it NOW!”
I hate, hate, hate it when I get this way. It’s so out of character for me. Generally, I am so mellow and patient! I speak softly to my kids, I take my time with them, I don’t freak out over anything. Why does this happen once in awhile? Does my patience level just reach its limit, and I explode? I hate it. I hate scaring the children yelling at them. I hate sounding like such a naggy bitch mother. Hate. It.
Say a little prayer for me, okay?
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Laura, also known as LaLaGirl, is the mother of a teenager and two young sets of twins. She's happily married, loves living in Colorado, and writes almost daily about married life, raising multiples, and parenting a child with autism.
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November 28th, 2007 at 3:03 pm
I want to give you a hug.
November 28th, 2007 at 3:56 pm
I know how you feel and I know how much it sucks. Cut yourself a little slack though. You are a fantabulous Mommy! Everyone has rough days.
November 28th, 2007 at 4:48 pm
Been there, done that…yesterday!
I get so mad at myself when I do that. I think I have “x” amount of patience and it can only be restored when I explode. LOL Hope tomorrow brings a better day.
November 28th, 2007 at 5:08 pm
love you! hope things calm down!
November 28th, 2007 at 5:22 pm
It happens, you’re not alone.
November 28th, 2007 at 5:34 pm
I hate when I get like that too! It’s the strangest thing because I often realize WHILE I’m yelling that I’m acting insane and yet I can’t seem to stop myself. Usually it’s because I’m either tired or hormonal or both.
November 28th, 2007 at 5:39 pm
Nothing to add but “me too’. I think, no, I KNOW, it’s time to dump some stuff, because I am over the top tired bitchy of the person I have become.
November 28th, 2007 at 5:57 pm
And totally me too over here! And then I feel bad and I make them cupcakes or take the movies or some other crazy thing to make up for me being psycho mean mommy.
November 28th, 2007 at 6:39 pm
I think we have all been there, done that. Hang in there. You are a wonderful Mom to those sweet children! Hang in there!
November 28th, 2007 at 11:11 pm
UGH. I’m the same way and then I always feel so bad. My dad is always annoyed by my kids and I always catch myself telling my dad, “They’re just kids”! hehe – I’m a hypocrite but he doesn’t need to know. But I do think we’re allowed to be bitchy sometimes. We are human!
November 28th, 2007 at 11:35 pm
*HUGS* I think that all moms have been there done that at some point in their mommyhood and more than once. You are a great mother and you know it.
November 29th, 2007 at 8:28 am
I think it’s the nature of the beast, sometimes we can handle anything and others just the smallest thing gets us down.
Hopefully today will be better.
November 30th, 2007 at 8:11 pm
Kisses. Hang in there!
December 26th, 2007 at 12:54 am
Totally know how all that goes. I hope you feel better.